I know that the human heart
houses no emotions
but why does it feel
like my chest is exploding
in slow motion
when you are near?
There is a coldness,
a separation,
as loneliness and distance
envelope and overcome me.
I am weak
powerless to move,
to turn away
until you look at me
and then I am flung to the depths
of my own despair
because there is nothing in your eyes.
There is no love or hate,
apathy or annoyance.
As if I don’t exist in your life
and I don’t exist in my own
conception of happiness.
So I stand alone,
chest exploded
dripping life
having not the energy to stand.
Body immobile
air like prison
hardly breathing
having not the energy to breathe.
As I fade,
fading slowly
fade away into the dark,
dark places of my soul.
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