loved love

I have someone whom I loved,

love.

 

she is not far away,

nearly.

 

I only think of happy times,

sadly.

 

dead words 02/2020

dead words on a page

 

i liked them so much better

when they were in my mind.

they danced, they jumped

they changed

as i tried to get them right.

 

They begged me to write them down,

But when I did,

They were empty, ugly, and dead,

Frozen in time and space,

In an effort to be validated.

 

afraid

 

I’m not afraid of dying

Because there’s no one in my life

I’m afraid of losing.

 

 

 

or since you

there were moments of pure happiness

that I experienced with you

that I experienced with no other

before you

or since you

 

but you made me angry

and you made me sad

and I felt loneliness

even while holding your hand

and I never felt that way

before you

or since you

 

now there is emptiness

a hole in my whole

and whatever I do

it’s never complete

because you are missing from my life

 

people talk of soul mates

I don’t know if they exist

but I never thought

that life was so precious

before you

or since you